Malam tadi tak boleh tido.. Akhirnya aku layan cite korea sampai pagi. N yet i sleep only 2 hours. Oh malam tadi aku tengok cite korea tu.. Tapi banyak yang aku belajar. Story about a woman who always get dumped by her boyfrens. And one day, she got new CEO. That man teach her a lesson why she always get dumped, why men leave her, what she shouldn't do, and what she must do.. Her character really same like me.. Die suke bagi hadiah kt boyfren die, dan die sanggup buat apa saje. Easy to forgive.. Cepat rase bersalah.. Just like me..
So CEO die ni ajar die untuk jual mahal bile boyfren perempuan tu nk coming back. Yes she did. She did all those thing. Buat lelaki tu terkejar kt die. But one thing she realize.. She just not being herself. Its true.. She success making him wanna grab her back but she just not happy with it. Its not her.. Aku pon macamtu. Kalau da sayang seseorang, aku betol2 sayang.. I'm willing doing everything i can.. I give more than what he gave.. Coz i like doing so.. And i can't change that thing..coz that's me..i love to be loved..
Few days ago, i told my fiance, all my frens in ward got roses, for Women's day. I said why you never give me once.. What he replied was.. If i have 20 ringgit and i just can give that 20 ringgit, and how about if someone with 200 ringgit give you 50 ringgit.. Which one will i choose.. I said i choose you honey.. Why asking so, coz i love you.. And he said again. What if you don't know i just only have 20 ringgit in my pocket and that's all i have for you.. I said why i have to look that money.. Why i have to look at your money and his money? He replied.. Then the answer is with me.. Why i jeleous with what people give to my frens.. Because i already have him. Why i care about others when i'm already with him..
Rase nak nangis time tu jugak. And he said he got touching when i didnt wear the head flower that he made by himself on our engangement day.. I'm truly sorry b..i asked him once, why you love me.. Is it because i'm kind ( joking).. He said nope, not because you are kind. I love you because you really make and effort to love me.. And i just being myself..and i appreciate that.. 😊 thanks honey..
So what i'm gonna say.. You don't have to be someone else, just show yourself. Proud to be who you are. Never change something that makes you unhappy. If he really love you, surely he love everything in you.. Your clumsiness.. All.. Sincerely i really clumsy person. And i worried a lot. You know how many times i call him up a day.. Morning before he going to work, afternoon lunch, 5.30 pm when he finish his job, calling him until he arrive at home. And one time before sleep. Why i doing so? Coz he the only man i have.. I don't have anybody else..i jusy filling my time with him. Yup he got mad..die rimas kot. Dulu2 la.. Mase mule2.. But now he getting used to.. He already know about me.. Maybe he knows why i'm like that..
So never thought that in every relationship that you failed, the fault is on you.. Think that he just not the right person.. Alhamdulillah i think he just the right person for me.. See ya.. Bye